when you're close to tears remember
someday it'll all be over...
don't you think it's time you started,
doing what we always wanted...
'cause even the impossible is easy...
one day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day,
we'll remember the days
we were close to the edge
and we'll wonder how we made it through...
'cause we are gonna be forever you and me,
you will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
High- Lighthouse Family
-thoughts in a nutshell-
:life through glassy tinted eyes:
She was given the gift of life, destined for things beyond her comprehension and created for uniqueness. Yet, she wasn't perfect- for slowly she had began to acknowledge humanity, the wear of the harsh world continously scarred her.
She knew that in her fragile heart, that humanity lacked compassion, it had kept her in darkness and yet she yearned and seeked for humanity to find her and mend her shattering heart, heal her scars.
With a smile she allowed others to use her, abuse her and toss her away- not wanted, not loved, not needed. Humanity didn't bother to look at her saddened smile, her glassy tears and empty heart.
Designed to be a doll, designed for everyone's uses and needs. Created for the purpose of being used whilst holding a sweet smile, continously sacrificing her heart. Her sole purpose for humannity was to be manipulated, used and soon forgotten. In the face of the harsh world that she could barely understand. She deserved no one and yet she longed for someone to mend her broken heart, to take the pain away.
She would sit in the corner tossed to the side in the darkness until they used her once more. She would sit with a broken heart and bright smile.
He had come along and saw her in her cold corner with a blinding smile, He had healed her, mended her and provided her with security. He had befriended her, accepted her and she knew she would never be alone once more within the world that turned it's back from her.
In humanity, Dolls which are broken are never wanted anymore...
yet we will never be alone.
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[Exodus 3:14]
A number people had asked where I had gotten the last part of my name from. It was from a short peice that I had written up on a whim a fair while ago.
I find myself here once more... procrastinating yet again... take a seat and relax as I tell you the events of my weekly grinds.
Holidays were last week, yes I only had a week of holidays- so for those from Canberra who I didn't get to see, you should have come to stump :P
Black stump was gold, it was beyond excellent (pun intended.. hehe). Though a christian music festival, it provided a variety of other activities such as sacred space, genesis lounge, contemporary dance and theatre. To be honest it was more than what I had expected it to be, with the joyful and friendly atmosphere surrounding you, you just want to be apart of it. The music ranged from being punk/rock, hip hop to acoustic or a cappella... so there was generally something for everyone music wise. There were workshops and worships as well and general games such as waterbomb volleyball, jumping castle and rock climbing.
If you allow yourself to be wrapped up in the atmosphere, the music and the talks then you'll enjoy it...
Also if you're coming with us (AACC) then you can laugh at my clumsiness... spilling mocha on my clothes... tripping in the tent (though no one saw that one haha)... Pen leaked on my nice pants as well! It was everywhere!! Or you can just laugh at Daniel's silly thermals and spilling milk almost every single day... ... and metroboy Mark's hair primping :P
Before Stump, I had intended to finish my assignment... that didn't happen. Tuesday was a good day, all you can eat yumcha changed though to Zilver... fancy, really fancy- food's the same but not all you can eat *sobs* how can that do that to me?
Wedenesday was Jo's (OT Jo) b'day... hehe 20, so old. :P (Happy b'day) Went to Pancake's on the rocks, played big 2 and some strange hand game and other strange card games.
Prashant pulled out three packs of cards, "Anyone want to play cards?" So that was interesting... we were intending to go to the beach, but I knew it would be overcast- as much as Prashant and the weather forecast would say it wouldn't be... so we never ended up going there and sat at starbucks for hours to be warm.
And that's all I remember of the holidays... I wonder where my week went... probably behind the couch as do most things which become lost, along with my marbles.
Oh, whilst we were seated at starbucks; Prashant comes up with what he thinks is a brilliant idea to prevent our lack of attending classes. The deal is, if he was to attend a class, I had to and vice versa. With Victor as our witness and sealed with blood (kidding), we agreed to the terms (reluctantly on my part). So a week has passed, and the attendance record for Prashant an all high (seeing that he hasn't missed one yet) and well me and all low... I had only attended one for the whole week... yeah I thought attending 2 lectures for the whole week was bad... but then again I didn't have monday to attend to. So that deal works out really well... I can't imagine how the other weeks are going to turn out to be.. *rolls eyes*
And for every gold coin that someone has to ask if Prashant and I are going out I'd be darn rich! ...hrm maybe I should put it down as a law when I'm ruler"one shall be fined for every time they question if Prashant and I going out"... Yes it shall be of decree when I take over the world... muhaha- it'll probably be where most of my riches would be from haha :P
I watched Luputa recently and I'm in love with Hayao Miyazaki's works. I want to do a marathon and I'm definately going to watch Howl's moving castle (subbed)... because I can't stand most english voice actors, though the girl in Luputa her voice was nicely done, like a woman-child who had an subtle elegance within her voice.
As you can probably tell... I'm only rambling as such due to the simple fact that I'm procrastinating like crazy. It's due tomorrow noon, 2000 words and I have barely touched it... 200 words, so... 1800 words to go! Yes... procrastination is an art form that I excel in... or just being lazy- then again that's another *cough* talent that I excel in as well...
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Tagged by: Son + Yv
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:- Alex
- Lexi
- Ling
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
- Lady of the Moon
- Sleep away reality| dreams of truth
- love to hate| hate to love
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- eyes
- ‘non-labour’ hands
- I can’t think of anything else…
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- skin
- stomach
- everything else not listed :P
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
- needles
- being unloved/unwanted
- commitments
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- God (I agree)
- Computer!
- House keys (don’t I know it…)
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
- zebra pattern slippers- or white tiger ones according to my brother
- Ripped up and safety pinned $5 shirt (yeah… I was bored)
- black stump blue band (which isn't going off till next year)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: I don’t technically have favourites… but these ones are good - Red hot chilli peppers
- Joe Hisaishi
- Delirious?
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
- Far longer than forever-swan princess…haha
- History maker- delirious?
- Poison- groove coverage
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
- To feel secure
- bond/companionship
- communication
2 TRUTHS 1 LIE:
- 13% of the world is left handed... :P
- I don't believe in 'soul mate' love
- I don’t lie unless I can’t find another way out (trixy) :P
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
- eyes
- smile… I guess? *shrugs*
- male :P kidding… umm.. I wouldn’t know- more into personalities
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- drawing
- lazing around looking at the clouds
- reading
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- finish my assignment off
- cure my curiosity
- beat my brother in hexic :P
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
- psychiatrist (I like screwing up people’s minds)
- nurse
- superhero
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- Venice
- France
- Japan
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- raise a child
- Take a trip around the world
- learn to ride a motorcycle, or another language… *shrugs* learn something different
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
- I absolutely hate pink
- I prefer rough and tumble play (eg. Climbing trees, attempting to tackle guys- unsuccessfully :P) and video games
- I don’t own many pairs of shoes. In fact my sneakers are 6 years old… and still going strong (random trivia :P) had them since year 8
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL: Okay I’m cheating here, but when it came to this question- I got stuck… haha - I like dancing -courtesy from Nay…(the other things you listed Nay, aren’t that stereotypical…)
- My phone habits- apparently to James… I talk far too long on the phone to be a boy
- My handwriting according to my brother, because it’s neat…
THREE CELEB CRUSHES: I wouldn't call them crushes, but I do enjoy their skills seeing that there are plenty of poor skilled actors out there, or I just adore their personality *shrugs*
- Johnny Depp
- Audrey Hepburn
- Lee Dong Gun
---THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW---
- Agatha
- Amber
- Nathan
:Silly things of late:
Four of us sitting down (Agatha, Amber, An and I) talking casually about what we can't stand.
Agatha: I can't stand maggots or flies.
Alex: Yeah flies can be annoying
Agatha: they should all die
An: But if they all die, then the frogs won't have anything to eat... and then the frogs will start eating US!
Yes frogs jump the food chain from flies to humans... so we all should be wary of the hungry human eating frogs.
~
Whilst waiting for Auntie Jennifer (Yv's mum) to pick us up to go to black stump.
Alex: I'm gonna take you out clubbing the first night you're 18
Daniel: I don't want to...
Alex: But you have to at least experience the atmosphere once, and what better person to take you out then your sister
Mark: Glad you're not my sister
Alex: *shrugs* so I'm taking you out yeah?
Daniel: But Ling teenage pregnancy can happen...
Alex: ... Daniel... ... as much as you think you can be pregnant, I have to break it to you- you're a boy...
Daniel: No I didn't mean it like that!! *Mark and I cracking up* Shut up!
~
It had been decided since the fateful summer in Penang that Mark had quality stupidity and Daniel quantity stupidity (due to a game we played during that period)... and together they make a different sort of silliness... that needs no rehearsing
Alex: So you guys want KFC or Hungry Jacks?
Daniel: ... ... jacks
Mark: King...
Daniel: white...
Mark: castle...
Amazing one word spontaneous conversation held randomly by Mark and Daniel...
~
As we were catching the train... it had slowed down.
Daniel: Is this an all stops?
Alex: Do you think the train is going to stop?
Daniel: N.... yes...
The train moves on, not stopping at the train station...
Daniel: You tricked me!
Mark and I look at each other...
Alex: how?
Daniel: Because I asked if this was an all stops and you then asked if it was going to stop and then... I said yes... you tricked me with your mind game!... *looks at our blank faces* Shut up!
Alex and Mark: *laugh*
~
There we were lying innocently in my bedroom, willing our bodies to go to sleep, with peace in our minds. Mark and I turn to speak to Daniel who was nearest the door (where a light source is)
Alex: Was that a cockroach
Mark: Yeah, I think it was...
Daniel: Are you serious!? *bolting out of his sleeping bag and across to the other side of the room*
And so chaos ensued...
Alex: *Grabbing the pea beu (insect spray) as the cockroach hid undeneath a bag* Daniel lift the bag up!
Daniel: *still at the furthest corner away from the cockroach* But I'm scared of them!
Alex: So am I... *sighs* Mark can you lift the bag-
Mark: I'm scared of them as well!
Alex: great... all three of us are scared of them... how are we going to survive.. Daniel please...
Daniel: how about I spray it and you lift the bag up...
Alex: Fine... *quickly giving the spray up as the bag was lifted*
Daniel immediately sprayed the cockroach as it darted to another section of the room all the while the both of us were screaming and yelling attempting to erradicate the bug.
And there was Mark standing in the other side of the room laughing his head off.
Soon the bug slowed and stopped all the while Daniel continued to spray it.
Alex: Daniel I think it's dead!
Daniel: but it's still moving!
Alex: you're gonna kill us with poison Daniel...
Daniel: But it's still moving!
Alex: You want us to be dead as well?
Daniel: It's a sacrifice we must take to kill the cockroach...
Alex: Mark you are so sweeping that thing out...
Mark: I'm not going near it unless your broom stick is at least 2 meters long
And so after the havoc slowed and died once the very dead cockroach was outside. The peace after the storm..
Daniel:... .... Ling can I sleep in your bed?
~
Agatha contemplating whether she wants a duckling.
Alex: if you really want to get one, then get one.
Agatha: I shouldn't because I'm afraid Cody (her dog) will eat it... and when it grows up I'm afraid mum will eat it...
Oh the joys of Asian parents.
-exit